*Names have not been changed to protect the innocent because they're all guilty. And I got receipts for EVERYTHING in this post.

So when I wrote about my story, my truth, I decided to share it on social media because I felt it was time for my story to be told. I also shared that I was getting a divorce for the entire world to see. This has been my very private space, and as everyone knows, I'm a very private person. I don't particularly like sharing what's going on in my life, but I felt like it was time to stop hiding and to start sharing more about myself. 

That post was difficult to write, but it was just time. This post, while a bit easier comes with receipts as I'm sharing screenshots of our messages together (Erica = Erika (before I knew the correct spelling of her name and I haven't messaged her since October 2020 so no need to change it), J for Jerk = Jerrell).

I GOT RECEIPTS

*Names have not been changed to protect the innocent because they're all guilty. This is also going to be LONG, so be prepared to sit down and read a book. 

No one ever said marriage is easy. It's not. Whenever I meet couples that have been married for over 20 years, I always ask how they did it, and I get the same response every time. 

"IT WAS HARD BUT WE KEPT TRYING."

Unfortunately, after 15 years, we stopped trying. 

 It's not the truth that hurts, it's the lies

 A few months ago, I might have been singing a different tune, and it took some time apart to fully realize that divorce isn't the end-all, and there's life after divorce. 

 When I found out that my husband was cheating, he automatically made it about himself by throwing the blame on me, and the sad part about it was that I truly believed that it was my fault for a moment.

 He said I was broken. 

 Over the years, I've been in a few relationships after my engagement of 11 years, to a man I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. Even though the other men I've started new relationships with were all different individuals with different faces, they all had similar character traits.

 Black women are by far the most disrespected. I have been called all sorts of things, but the one that stands out the most is when I'm called crazy. I was in a relationship, for eleven years, and with every argument or misunderstanding we've had, I was labeled as crazy. When I found out he had cheated on me, I was called crazy, and it's all in my head, he said.

 So you may be wondering why the name Crazy Black Woman.